Did you think I forgot about this?

Long time, no blog! It's been really hard to adjust to the new job and schedule and all that entails. But now that I have a consistent schedule again, I have no reason not to get back to doing a weekly blog! So, here I am~

I work splits Monday thru Friday (7a-11a, 3p-7p). But that way I get to have two days off in a row and that's what is really important about it. Besides it's kind of nice and the day generally goes by fast.

So, I've got about a month before my Person Meets Person submission is due. It's been hard to get that particular story going. I don't know why the words just won't come to me for it. I'm going to have to buckle down and plow through a first draft soon; no matter how much it sucks. I can always fix it if I can just get the words down!

I'm not sure what's been keeping me from finishing anything lately. I think it's a lot of things but maybe foremost a lack of inspiration.

Inspire me someone!

Here's this weeks free piece. It's a poem. Pretty dark. I wrote it more than a few years ago. Let me know your thoughts!

Trigger warnings: A little morbid, implied suicide and is just generally macabre.

Hands

Grasping desperately 

My hands too slippery 

With blood covering them

I try still

As I look at them

In awed horror

Blood gushing 

In steady streams 

You look away from me 

Not trying to help 

A laugh reaches my ears 

Maniacal and cold 

Slipping, falling 

You kill the last hope 

Once reaching hands 

Lay limp in the 

Pool of blood 

Around your feet

Long time, no see

I could give a lot of excuses as to why I fell off the blogging train again. The truth is that I was too unmotivated and depressed over the past few months to even try. I haven't been able to get any interviews even and not having a job has always proven to be the worst thing that could ever happen to my writing. I'm hoping that with the recent interview I had that this is something that will be changing soon. <br><br>

I was working on a submission that was going to be due in July and I had missed the deadline but then I looked at the site I want to sub to and found out that the deadline has been pushed back until december 31. This is exciting and means I have more time to truly put my best foot forward. It's still a story I plan to write in novel length but this way I can give it a happy ending... kind of like a west side story for romeo and juliet. ^^ It makes it easier to stomach the hardships my characters will be going through. <br><br>

As well as determining that I'm going to submit to this anthology I've found about 10 other upcomings on storm moon press that I am interested in subbing to. It's going to take a lot of work but it's time for me to buckle down. I'm thinking of picking 5 of them to use as my nanowrimo... You know, a kind of short story anthology of it's on and then I can get them proofread reworked before I submit them. <br><br>

I just have to buckle down and get to writing regularly again no matter how unmotivated I feel. Giving into this feeling only makes it all worse. I'm better than this! As always I'd appreciate knowing you're in my corner so leave me comments here or email me at kitemry @ gmail or tweet me at @jjangonestar and just ask me how my writing is going! I need the push right now to keep going.