Did you think I forgot about this?

Long time, no blog! It's been really hard to adjust to the new job and schedule and all that entails. But now that I have a consistent schedule again, I have no reason not to get back to doing a weekly blog! So, here I am~

I work splits Monday thru Friday (7a-11a, 3p-7p). But that way I get to have two days off in a row and that's what is really important about it. Besides it's kind of nice and the day generally goes by fast.

So, I've got about a month before my Person Meets Person submission is due. It's been hard to get that particular story going. I don't know why the words just won't come to me for it. I'm going to have to buckle down and plow through a first draft soon; no matter how much it sucks. I can always fix it if I can just get the words down!

I'm not sure what's been keeping me from finishing anything lately. I think it's a lot of things but maybe foremost a lack of inspiration.

Inspire me someone!

Here's this weeks free piece. It's a poem. Pretty dark. I wrote it more than a few years ago. Let me know your thoughts!

Trigger warnings: A little morbid, implied suicide and is just generally macabre.

Hands

Grasping desperately 

My hands too slippery 

With blood covering them

I try still

As I look at them

In awed horror

Blood gushing 

In steady streams 

You look away from me 

Not trying to help 

A laugh reaches my ears 

Maniacal and cold 

Slipping, falling 

You kill the last hope 

Once reaching hands 

Lay limp in the 

Pool of blood 

Around your feet

Late, late, always late

Bwah... So, I slacked off again but last week I was in San Jose for the Teen Top concert and didn't have a chance to be online much. It was so much fun though! I missed three days of work but it was a good mental health break and the concert was just so amazing.. And I have an autographed poster and got to shake all the members' hands. Seriously, was an amazing experience! ㅠㅠ I really hope they come back for another concert soon.

Needless to say, I also didn't get much writing done and missed the deadline for <i>Bygone Beasts</i>. But, I still want to finish the story I started. Maybe, I'll find a place for it later or I can put it up for free! \o/ I wonder if anyone would read it or anything. Would be awesome but I have a lot of work to do before I get that far. The idea is really exciting though!

The next submission call I'm trying to submit to isn't due for a couple of months, so I have no excuse about getting it done on time. It's a trans* submission call and I started the story a while ago now and so I need to refresh my memory on it and then get to work on continuing and finishing it up.

But, now, it's time for free fiction. I still haven't been able to get my website off the ground so I'm going to keep posting it in my blog posts for now until I find someone that can help me design my website at relatively low expense.

I don't think I've posted this one yet. It's called <i>Thoughts of the Past</i>. I wrote it seeeeeveral years ago and I haven't really reread it at any depth. It's g rated m/m romance theme though. When I wrote it I said it might be part of a bigger story and I still think that could be true. Who knows what will come to me. :) Let me know what you think as always!

<blockquote>Word Count: 573


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His stormy blue-grey eyes stared out the window, watching the droplets of water roll down the glass in slow intricate patterns. A soft sigh passed through his soft lips, closing his eyes slowly.

The view outside this window was so vastly different from the view he had known all his life. Instead of the wide-open Kansas plains there were crowded buildings and streets. Where once he could look up and see billions of bright twinkling stars, he only saw a few dull lights, blurry with the smog that weighed heavily of the Tokyo skyline.

With a sigh he finally turned away from the window, eyes traveling over the comfy chairs and the other couch scattered across the living room. A coffee table was in front of him; an arrangement of various flowers in an ornate vase adorned the center. He was happy here, but still, at times he missed the home of his past.

The sound door of the apartment opening caught the man's attention, drawing his thoughts from the musings as he glanced up. "I'm home, Kenton," the person called and Kenton smiled, listening to the shuffling, knowing the other was taking his shoes and coat off. Finally, he stood up, his footsteps making a soft padding sound on the wooden floors. "Welcome home, Shiro," Kenton said, pushing his black hair out of his eyes, looking up at his Japanese lover.

Shiro smiled down at Kenton, his black eyes sparkling. "How are you, my little butterfly?" he asked, pulling Kenton to him, tilting the other's head up with one of his fingers and pressing their lips together lovingly. The taller man finally pulled back, letting gentle fingers caress lightly over Kenton's cheek. "You should smile, my love," he chuckled, nuzzling the other.

"Why," Kenton asked, leaning into the nuzzle, resting against the taller man.

"Then I will know that you are happy," Shiro answered, running the pad of his thumb over Kenton's soft lips. "I took you away from everything you know and love…I need to know that you are happy here, Kenton."

Kenton's lips twitched into a small smile. "Shiro…you're a silly man. Just because I don't smile much doesn't mean that I'm not happy," he said gently, reaching his arms up to lock lightly around the back of Shiro's neck. "I love you. My heart is with you. My home is with you. My happiness –is- you."

Shiro chuckled and rubbed Kenton's nose with his own. "All right," he conceded, running his thumb over Kenton's lips again before kissing him. "I love you, also," he murmured.

Finally Kenton pulled away from Shiro. "Do you want me to make dinner tonight?" he asked, heading towards the small kitchen.

Shiro grabbed Kenton's arm, pulling him back. "What's wrong, Kenton?" he asked, looking deep into his eyes as he held him firmly.

Kenton looked away but finally leaned against him. “I just miss my old home sometimes…It’s so crowded and noisy here…Sometimes it just gets to me,” he admitted, looking down almost ashamed of how he felt. “I am happy here, Shiro, but sometimes I miss the open fields and star-filled skies.”

Shiro chuckled softly, brushing his long fingers through the smaller man’s hair. “Then we will go visit your home,” he said simply.

“My home is here, but I would like to visit my past,” Kenton whispered. “I love you, Shiro.”

“As I love you,” was the man’s simple answer.</blockquote>

I'm on time!

I missed a week on updating the blog. Which I'm upset with myself about. I had it all written out but class had me extra burnt out and I just never had the motivation to type it all up. So, that means this week I am going to post two free fictions: one SFW and one NSFW. It's only Wednesday but this will be typed up and scheduled for Friday!

So, last weekend I went and saw The Monuments Men and it was even better than I thought it would be. It broke my heart but made me feel really good at the same time. Art, of every kind, is so important. It's our spirit and our legacy, proof that we existed. It was so humbling to see a movie about people who fought and died to save the human spirit. Their work was so magnificent and The Monuments Men did so much against such difficult odds.

Since the movie moved me so much and WWII fascinates me anyway,  I have started reading The Monuments Men: Allied Heroes, Nazi Thieves, and the Greatest Treasure Hunt in History by Robert M. Edsel. His introduction made me cry. I'm really enjoying the book, though, I am reading it very slowly. I recommend it if you love history!

I also recently finished reading the second book in the Lynda Chance trilogy that I talked about previously. Blackmailed into Bed is so much worse than the first and I didn't think that was possible. I feel like even smutty stories should always have character depth. Also, rapey main guys aren't sexy to me at all. This novella just felt really lazy over all and so I am dreading reading the last one in the trilogy: Bedded by the Boss.

I haven't really made any progress on House of Bathory. But, I have started reading Picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde. So, that's fun. I have a hard time reading only one book at a time most of the time. But it works for me if I read several at once and bounce around to what suits me at the moment.

I wrote a fanfiction drabble of a lesbian pair and actually finished it. That's the first thing I've finished in ages. I'm super proud. LOL. I've got to get writing my Bygone Beasts submission for SMP! March 30th will be here before I know it.

Well, that's all I have this week. Let's move on to the free fiction!

Giro di Venezia (NSFW, m/m erotica)

New Life (Safe for work)

Let me know what you think! I really appreciate any comments I think.

New Website!

So! I meant to post this on Friday but never got past writing the subject. I found a place that made it easy to create a nice website ( http://kitemry.webs.com/ )! After that, I ended up purchasing my own domain but it's going to take me a little while to figure out how to get it up and running.

I did post a free fiction last Friday. It's from 2008 but when I reread it, it really affected me. I was kind of surprised it was able to do that and I worry my writing has become worse since then. But that just means I need to start writing more again; and I need to keep reading a lot!

But in any case, please check out the free short I posted and let me know what you think: http://kitemry.webs.com/apps/blog/

I'd also like to share writing.com with fellow readers and writers! Join with this link: http://www.Writing.Com?rfrid=candiedinago

See you later this week!

Long time, no see

I could give a lot of excuses as to why I fell off the blogging train again. The truth is that I was too unmotivated and depressed over the past few months to even try. I haven't been able to get any interviews even and not having a job has always proven to be the worst thing that could ever happen to my writing. I'm hoping that with the recent interview I had that this is something that will be changing soon. <br><br>

I was working on a submission that was going to be due in July and I had missed the deadline but then I looked at the site I want to sub to and found out that the deadline has been pushed back until december 31. This is exciting and means I have more time to truly put my best foot forward. It's still a story I plan to write in novel length but this way I can give it a happy ending... kind of like a west side story for romeo and juliet. ^^ It makes it easier to stomach the hardships my characters will be going through. <br><br>

As well as determining that I'm going to submit to this anthology I've found about 10 other upcomings on storm moon press that I am interested in subbing to. It's going to take a lot of work but it's time for me to buckle down. I'm thinking of picking 5 of them to use as my nanowrimo... You know, a kind of short story anthology of it's on and then I can get them proofread reworked before I submit them. <br><br>

I just have to buckle down and get to writing regularly again no matter how unmotivated I feel. Giving into this feeling only makes it all worse. I'm better than this! As always I'd appreciate knowing you're in my corner so leave me comments here or email me at kitemry @ gmail or tweet me at @jjangonestar and just ask me how my writing is going! I need the push right now to keep going.